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01 October 2008 @ 12:12 pm


Thus far, I have to say... living on my own has been one of the best experiences of my life. I mean, I got home yesterday from seeing a movie and was sitting down at my laptop when I realized that I haven't been this happy in a long time. Even throwing the foot pain in there, I am, for the most part... happy. :D It's a strange feeling!

I barely did anything yesterday. My alarm clock didn't go off, so I ended up waking two hours later than I planned. I had about an hour tojust get awake before my grandma came over so we could get some things done.

First thing on the list was picking up my debit card. For some reason, putting that card into my wallet seemed bigger than getting my permit. Probably because I haven't done much with said permit ^_^;. Either way, it felt like a real adult step or something. Was really cool.

And holy crap- it's so neat looking! Like, all pretty and everything. And it has my name on it. O.O Duuuuuude... That shouldn't be as awesome as it is! XD

After I got that, my grandma went to her own bank to get a withdrawl for groceries later. Then she took me to this new subdivision that isn't quite done yet (and thus a bit more empty) and I got to practice driving for a while. It's been a while since I was behind the wheel, and I've only done that twice. Nevertheless, things seemed to come a little easier now. I remembered to use my turn signal 99% of the time- the one time I didn't when I was trying to figure out how to Yield and and do it at the same time. >.>

That was the harder part, I think. I couldn't quite remember what to do at a Yield. Hopefully next time will be better. Another thing to work on is a problem my stepdad pointed out during my first lesson last year- I overcompensate when I turn the wheel sometimes, so when I go to straighten out the vehicle afterwards, I end up having a harder time at it then I should. (scratches head) Maybe I'm turning too slow? Because when I do it, I try to turn the wheel just the right amount, but I always feel like I'm going to hit the curb or something when I do so I end up turning it a little more. Hmm... (considers)

Other than that though, I think I did fairly well. Stayed on the right side of the road most of the time as well, the only time I didn't being during some of those oddball turns of mine. But since no one was really in the street, I didn't have to worry about hitting anyone.

When we were done there, I went to grandma's and lounged for a bit. That's another thing that's been great about me being on my own- my relationship with my family members is actually seeming to improve! I haven't had stressing conversations with any of them, for the most part, since I've moved in here. And with my grandparents, I actually seem to be getting along with them well! I like this a lot. Maybe someday I can do the same with my dad? He'll be harder, I know, but it's not impossible.

Anyways- before going to grandma's, we'd driven by the little theatre in town and I'd seen that Eagle Eye was playing. I've been wanting to see that for awhile, but thought I wouldn't go as it's not much fun seeing a movie by yourself. And it's not like it's my grandparents' kind of movie.

That was when I remembered though- the only person I've really been able to keep a friendship going with that lived so far away? Yeah, we're in the same town now. :D So I called her up and asked if she'd like to go with me, and she ended up bringing her sisters, cousin, and two people I don't know. XD It was cool though! Her family is really nice, and I like hanging out with them when I can. Heck, they're usually less busy than I am! And her older sister has offered to help teach me how to drive as well, which is really neat.

The movie was really great, by the way. I give it a little Pi Stamp of Approval! It was definitely my kind of movie- action with a nice side of thriller.

One of my favorite lines is the thing about the timers. XD I won't quote it because it has the potential to spoil, but it was awesome.

My friend took me home after the movie was done, and I came into the bedroom. I already stated my little realization above, but yeah. It's great to finally have things going for me. Though I miss talking to peoples online and stuff. ;_; It's like no one's on anymore, even if I know it's only me who isn't on anymore! XD

Seriously though- I miss. Though I don't miss some of the crazy net drama that goes on, and I hope there hasn't been any of that. I'm kinda keeping an eye on one that could be starting up, but hopefully it won't fully develop.

Though all things considered, with the way this fandom runs it probably will. >.<

 
 
Current Mood: happy
 
 
Pi90katana
25 September 2008 @ 01:30 am
Turns out sleep actually did help. Yayz!

After I woke up, it was back to packing. My stepdad helped out this time, though, and we were on the road a little after noon. Got into town around two, and then proceed to unload everything.

I like my apartment. It's nice and quiet. I did however come across a little road block. As this is a basement apartment, my television's antenna isn't getting a very good signal. Like... at all. No television for me! ;_;

I must figure out a way to change this. Not much point in having my television if I can't watch it. I suppose now may be as good a time as any to get something set up for when they switch to HDTV in February. As soon as I can afford it, anyways.

Tomorrow, I also need to get my cell phone. I was going to do that when I got off work, but the one I need to get isn't sold at night. You have to come in during normal hours and such. So I'll see what I can do about that. Also, I only have like forty-five dollars to spend on it, so I hope I can actually afford one. :/

Now, I think I'll shower. It took a while to get home, and my feet are hurting me again.
 
 
Current Mood: drained
 
 
Pi90katana
24 September 2008 @ 04:10 am
I've reached the frayed end of my rope here. Excitement turns into anxiety and that leads to a small break down. I've been packing for nearly twenty-four hours and am still nowhere near ready. I don't really have that much stuff, but what I do have is seriously starting to pile up. And I don't know where to put it, or how to fit it, and it's just driving me insane.

I took one break to eat and that was it. I skipped both breakfast and dinner because I thought I would be done 'soon' and could eat then.

Now it's just past four in the morning and this is where I break down. I'm tired and hungry and worried about finishing up here so I can get my stuff to my apartment tomorrow. And then worried that it will take too long and I won't have groceries and won't be able to eat when I come home for the night. And then worried that I'll be to worn out to do good at work tomorrow, and considering whether or not I should call in. But I can't do that so soon- I'm still trying to do good at my job and I just started! What kind of impression does that make?

My stepdad came in a little while ago and barked at me. He said to go to bed so I am. Hopefully things won't seem so complicated when I wake up.
 
 
Current Mood: anxious
 
 
Pi90katana
23 September 2008 @ 02:17 pm

So as I pack, I've been taking care of some other things today. Going to call the electric company soon and get that put in my name, and I'll be purchasing a cell as well.

Just a few minutes ago, I tried to get the Clearwire net bill put in my name. Had mom here and everything to confirm that it was all right as well.

After waiting what seemed like forever, I was told I couldn't have it because I have no credit. Even though I've been paying for it for nearly a year, and even though I'm the only one who uses it. Their suggestion to mom when she told them she's moving was to try and sell it on Craigslist.

What the crap? They already have someone willing to spend their hard earned money! Me! 

Stupid jerks. Mom says we'll try and get it switched again later. Really hope it works out 'cause I needs my netz.

I could always try WLAN, but I have no idea if I'll pick up a strong enough signal there. :/ 'Tis troublesome.

Anyways, better get back to packing. My books, movies, and TMNT stuff is all packed. Next I'll do clothes and the things on the walls.
 
 
Current Mood: irate
 
 
Pi90katana
22 September 2008 @ 11:17 pm

I am out of my grandmother's house and home. Or rather, what will be home for the next twenty four hours. On Wednesday, I move into my apartment.

It's still exciting, but it's getting a little frightening now too. Gonna be all by myself from here on out. And the people I can tolerate are the ones that will be furthest away. I'm going to miss them, but I think this is best for me.

I really hope I can keep my life together. If I can remain employed, it should work out all right. Money will be tight, but I think I'll be okay. And it's not like I really waste my money. Every once in a while I buy some comics and DVD's, but I don't really spoil myself otherwise. I stick to particular foods and don't waste. So as long as I keep to that... It should be all right.

...I hope.

After my stepdad picked me up, he took me to my new apartment. You can tell it's old from the style, but I like it. I have the basement apartment (YUS :D), so it'll be pretty cool most of the time, I think. I met the woman who lives in one of the apartments upstairs (there's two of them) and she was really nice. She told me I could come to her if I need anything and to call her if her dog makes too much noise. Because of our different work schedules, I probably won't see her too often, sadly. But she is nice! 

Now to move on. Tomorrow is probably going to be really busy, as I'll be packing everything up. Or all the important things, anyways. The rest will come bit by bit. I also got to get the power in my name (did the water today), as well as switch the net bill to my name, and a few other things. Need groceries and a cell. I'm going to get a bike lock too- I can ride my bike to work until I can drive, I think.

Well, I suppose I should start working on my room a little! ^_^
 
 
Current Mood: busy
 
 
Pi90katana
21 September 2008 @ 03:46 am

My feet still hurt. Nothing new there, of course. XD Though there is one guy I finally got to work with. He's an awesome unloader- he's like having three extra people around. :D Makes life easier for me!

After tomorrow, I'll have some days off. Hyess.... (dies of happiness). I can rest my feet, go home for a little bit, hang with the family some, and pack up my stuff. I should be in my own apartment come Tuesday/Wednesday though, which is even better. I can't waot. :D

Oh, and I downloaded the new BTTS episode. I'll share my thoughts on it- this was cross-posted to TT though. Sorry to anyone re-reading it!

Actually, this episode wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Maybe that's because I read the synopsis last week (Me: Brainwashed Casey? GAH. BORED. LAME. Noooooooez! ;_;), or maybe it has something to do with the fact that I read all of your guys' take on it while it was downloading. I was like, prepared for suckiness but got a teaspoon when I was expecting a cup.

Most pleasing. :D

My take on it:

1. No one can angst like Leo. If the TMNT characters had a Monopoly game based on their angsting, Leo is Boardwalk. It's perfect for setting up your little angst hotels in, but at the same time a bit much when you land on it. Don, on the other hand, is like North Caroline Avenue. Nice and all, and there's a lot to do with it, but it simply doesn't measure up.

To put it simply, I agree. This Don!angst has yet to impress. But like I said- he's North Carolina. And that property has potential. (nod, nod)

2. I'm not all for the cartoony look either. I wants more shading. And more realism. And... less of some of the other crap that doesn't look at all like the TMNT I wuvs. ;_; Though some scenes are nice, I'll admit.

3. I agree with [info]ivy_chan - I'm loving Mikey. Even with his typical jokes (despite enforcing stupid!Casey, I cracked up so bad at the 'tell time' line. XD I do that with people I know all the time, awesome burn).

4. (sigh) I had such high hopes for Golden Dragon Dude, who I will now refer to by his name. Khan looked cool last episode, but now he makes me pout. Why does every huge enemy have to be connected to the Foot? (headdesk)

5. On that note, again, WHERE THE HELL IS BISHOP?! ;_;

6. To agree with AFW this time- ZOMG. They said blood. They indicated real violence! *_* I missed that soooo bad. Think we'll see any of the purple stuff? You know... as theanimators seem to actually avoid making blood red in this show. Every time I've seen it it's been purple...

7. I don't like April's new look. :( She looks nothing like the way she used to.

8. Interesting thing to mention: When Raph rammed into Khan? Dude. There was a pole there. And in front of that pole, behind the baddie, was Leo. What. The. Heck. Bad move, Raph. Of course, thanks to voodoo!animation!magic, the pole was moved, Leo got out of the way, and Khan bounced instead of getting flattened. >.<

And that's all for now, folks! XD
 
 
Current Mood: amused
 
 
Pi90katana
17 September 2008 @ 02:48 pm

Yesterday when I woke up, I found myself heavily congested. Seriously- I'd gone through fifty Kleenexes in three hours, and at least another thirty throughtout the rest of the day. Now I'm really grateful I had yesterday off. Gave me some recovery time for my feet, as well as time to work with my sinuses.

I've had three Airborne thingies between yesterday and now, and I think it's helped quite a lot. I can do things again, at least. My feet still hurt a little when I walk, but it's nothing serious anymore. Plus, yesterday I went and got myself some new shoes. They have gel inserts *_*. Even better, I can put my orthotics in them and still walk comfortably. It should help me out a lot, I think.

So now I better go get ready for work. No more days off until Monday now. (gulps)

Before I go though, got a bit of good news to share. :D

I got the apartment! ^_^ It should be available for me to move into in a few days!

(is so excited)
 
 
Current Mood: okay
 
 
Pi90katana
12 September 2008 @ 11:20 pm

Today was long and tiring, but I won't complain. For the most part, it really was easy. Seven hours of computer based learning (CBL), pertaining to various topics which I can only help I'll remember.

I find some perverse joy in my conversations with my grandmother now. She keeps bringing up everything that can go wrong and saying how it would be much easier if I just lived with her and her rules, and how if something happens I'll have to take care of it all on my own. I have no doubt that things will go wrong from time to time and I'll be rushing around trying to solve them. But thus far, it's all good. And it is vastly entertaining watching all of her issues get show down.

Let's review! Bold is my grandmother.

It'll take so long to get home from work in the dark.
My apartment, should I get it, is only a mile away.

You can't walk in the Winter!
I have my permit now, and I'll learn how to drive.

What will you drive then? Cars aren't free.
My parents bought me one, actually.

I bet that apartment isn't furnished.
That's okay- my stepdad just got me almost everything I need.

You know you'll have to rent. What if you can't afford it?
My family is going to give me some money to start off, and I can save the pay I get for future months.

A lot of those apartments have leases and if you can't afford it, they can take you to court. And I'm not going to co-sign.
That's all right- my stepdad just got the lease for me, actually. And he'll be co-signing.

The list goes on an on, but you get the point. She keeps trying to ruin it for me, and everytime we throw a wet blanket over her. And everyone else who brings up the same lack of faith in me. It's great. XD

Anyways, to bed I go! Gotta get up for our two-day religious assembly, tomorrow. I was going to tape the premeire for Back to the Sewers, but then I found out I need to have digital television to even see it! >.< Gah! It's insane!

So I guess I'll just watch it online when I get home. Hopefully.

Here's my dragon!


Adopt one today!
 
 
Current Mood: pleased
 
 
Pi90katana
11 September 2008 @ 08:06 pm

For once in my life, everything seems to be going my way. Seriously- today was perfect. I couldn't be more happy! Even in the early morning, I had nothing but good news.

My stepdad drove me up here and we talked a lot on the way. He gave me tips when working, and discussed responsibility and other things. But he told me something else too that was way cool- apparently, several months ago he and my mom started saving up to buy me a car and they got it not too long ago. It's a white Buick, and as soon as I can drive I can have it.

Um... awesome! A car! (dances around)

And it only got better from there. Went to work and got to put my name on my badge (which is really cool, by the way), and then me and the other five new hire-ons got to go to a meeting. I got to see the Wal*Mart cheer. O.O Sounds interesting! It was cool seeing everyone do it though. And everyone I met seems really happy, too.

After the meeting, we went back to the training room and finished the rest of our paperwork. Then we got a break, which was also fun. I hung out with a cashier who's about a year older than me and we talked and stuff before going back when our break was done. I stuck with her for most of the day. Sadly, she'll be on a different shift than I so we won't see each other after tomorrow. Was still fun, though!

When we got back, we watched some videos and were introduced to more people as they came in. We went over policies and stuff. Then we got to play this game dealing with Wal*Mart history- I won two pins! They're pretty neat looking. ^_^

After that, one of the women showed us how to clock in and out, and informed us how the scheduling works. We clocked out for lunch then and I went to the Subway they have in the store. They give employees a discount, which we also get while working there (ten percent). 'Twas yummy! And I was back right on time.

We continued to meet more people, and then she divided us up to go around the store and gather information and stuff. We had a time limit, so we didn't finish it completely. It was all right though- as they're remodeling, not even the current employees know exactly where everything is!

When we got back, we had to get back up again and take a tour around the store. It was neat seeing everything that goes on behind the scenes. It's so big back there! The coolest part was literally cold- the freezers? They're great! There's three of them, and they're like giant rooms. The one for ice cream was at eight degrees! Someone actually had to go in there to put some ice cream in and you could feel it. I loved it.

After the tour, there was another meeting. Then we got our schedules! I work from four in the afternoon to one in the morning, as I was told I will. My days off are Monday and Tuesday, which is perfect. I won't miss any meetings. 

Oh! And since I'm in ICS, I also got a little blade for cutting open boxes and stuff. Mwahaha... my employers like to give me sharp objects, I notice. XD

Let's see... I was supposed to do CBL today, but they were low on computers. Since I'm ICS, I guess I have the least to do so I get to do it tomorrow. I have to work tomorrow from the same time I went today, so I guess I'll have to get to bed early. They gave me some shirts for work though! So comfy. ^_^

Best part about all of this was I got paid for orientation. Hyess! (dances around)

When I got back to grandma's I took a little nap. I've been dinking around now though, getting caught up with the interwebz and such. And that's when my stepdad called me with some excellent news.

First off, he went to visit that apartment and he says it looks really good. Also, it already has a fridge and a stove.

Secondly, he went to give a customer a bid on a floor. The women's elderly parents had passed away, so they're cleaning out their house, right? Well, they asked if he knew anyone who would like some of the things inside. He got me a couch, tables and chairs, and a practically new washer and dryer! Excuse me while I 'squee'- this is just amazing! I'm so happy!

All that I really need now then, as I've never needed too much, is a microwave and a toaster. And those are pretty cheap!

I can't wipe the grin off my face. I'm just so happy! :D 
 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
 
 
Pi90katana
10 September 2008 @ 11:56 pm

As I said last night, all the junk that doesn't go in my closet goes under the bed. I just discovered the bed is twice as bed as the closet- I just finally finished collecting the garbage down there and placing it in a bag (it's full). I'm taking a break now before I find spots for the things I want to keep.

There weren't as many fun things down there. There was my parents' wedding album, which I already knew was lurking, as well as my CD's. Oh! And I found that other orthodic! :D

I should be getting to bed soon, but my room's such a mess I think I'll still be up for an hour. That and I need to make sure my clothes are dry when I wake up.

I have to get up really early. I finally heard from Wal*Mart! I have orientation tomorrow from eight to five!

Hmm... I wonder if they'll start me right away. I kinda hope they dont- there's this religious event on the weekend I'm supposed to go to. I may be able to go to a different circuit's assembly, but that's only a maybe. Hmm...

But yeah! I'm looking forward to that tomorrow! I'm staying with grandma yet again, though I'm supposed to go back Friday. That may change if I have to work on the weekend. I dunno.

If I could drive, it wouldn't be so bad. I could just leave the assembly a little early and make it to work on time. But I can't, and I don't think anyone else could take me.

I'm so nervous! Gah- gotta finish cleaning. I don't want to be exhausted tomorrow. My stepdad and I are also going to go take a look at that apartment! :)

Thanks for helping my egg hatch!

Adopt one today!

 
 
Current Mood: restless
 
 
Pi90katana
09 September 2008 @ 10:55 pm

Today I cleaned out my closet. I mean... literally. I cleaned out my closet. XD

I am not a very tidy person. I think if I had my own place, it would look neater because I actually don't have too many things. In this tiny room though, they all get cramped.

I'm horrible with clothes. I don't like dressers, so usually I keep them on the floor. The dirty ones go in the hamper, of course. 'Cept socks. I don't like to lose them and it happens that way.

Things I don't have places for either end up under the bed or in my closet. If you're wondering why I don't keep my clothes in their, it is a simple matter that there are already clothes in there (not mine) and thus no room for them.

Anyways- back to cleaning. I found a lot of things in there today. Some trashworthy, and some things I hadn't seen for awhile.

There was an art set I got when I was younger. And I found a shoe that had one of my orthodics in it (can't find the other). There were some books, and some graded tests from when I was home schooling. I found two notebooks I used to write fic in when I was in school- for Pulse and Cork. I found some pictures I took with that old camera when I was eleven, and a few from a much better camera at fourteen.

It's neat to see these things again. But there was one thing I didn't even know was back there. It was at the corner, in a box that's been sitting there since we moved here. Has a whole bunch of random documents and cards and all sorts of things.

There were also pictures there. And one was a small little wallet that I'd only seen once. I used to have had the same picture. I carried it around everywhere with me like a token or something. I have an exceptional memory, but I'm afraid it doesn't go that far back, so to me it was kinda like proof. But when day when I was walking home from school it fell out of my pocket and I didn't know it until I got home.

My parents separated before I was about a year and a half, and were officially divorced when I was three. This picture is a family portrait of us before that happened. According to the handwriting on the back, I was fifteen months at the time, so it wasn't too long.

It's the only picture I've seen with all three of us together. There are home movies somewhere, but since my dad was always filming, I never really saw both of my parents with me in one place before. Before the divorce, I mean. So it's as strange as it is comforting to see it, even though I've looked at it before.

And I don't entirely know what to do with it right now, either. I'll find a place for it though.

I'm still waiting for that call from Wal*Mart. I keep the phone nearby at all times! And I'm really hoping for that apartment- my stepdad talked to the man selling it today. There is another person interested, but apparently he doesn't have references. ...Whereas my stepdad did a hardwood floor for this guy's father. :D No guarantee, but I'm trying to stay optimistic.

And now for my dragon! Ooh... I see a hole! Clickies, please?

Adopt one today!
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
Pi90katana
08 September 2008 @ 11:28 pm

You know what the smart thing to do after going to the doctor is? Listen. I have clearly forgotten this for the little bag he gave me to see if it helps my problem has remained untouched since I plopped it on the floor Thursday afternoon. Gotta remember to try the darn stuff tomorrow.

Something I realized today that will keep that piece of glass that is my misfortunes shoved up my foot is location. The family that is good for me (on most levels) and the ones I wouldn't mind staying somewhat close to are going to be moving to another state. Whilst the ones who cause my stress levels to esculate dangerously quick will be all the more closer if this thing works out.

Even having my own place won't help completely. My grandma is just about the nosiest person I know, so there's not much escaping her. At the very least, I'll see her at the Kingdom Hall. And it's not like I can ignore her there like I would with some random person in my current congregation. We're related, and if I were to childishly do something like that, everyone would notice. This congregation is so much more close knit- I remember how things were when my dad got disfellowhipped. It hurt everyone- and he hadn't even been attending there for several years!

I grew up with most of the people there. There some of the few I have no qualms with. I wouldn't want to do that to them, and I'm certainly not interested in them trying to find out what's wrong.

This is a troublesome matter that I'll have to fix. :/

More importantly though, I'm just hoping everything else works out to my advantage first. I'm still waiting for a call from Wal*Mart. Everyone tells me that if they drug tested me, I'm hired. I'm trying not to get my hopes up- just being excited as I am is already proving to be a bother as I'm worrying for the results. I just wish I had an answer.

If that works out, next will be the apartment. My stepdad has to talk with his client soon and the matter will come up, I know. That's also quite important, though the two go hand in hand.

I just want to know soon.

Adopt one today!
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
Pi90katana
06 September 2008 @ 08:47 pm

Today was dedicated to me catching up on some much needed sleep. Between what little I got while camping to all the running around I've been doing, I didn't realize how much sleep I'd lost. It wasn't until last night where I found myself sleeping through an IM conversation (I'm sorry, Dis! ;_;) that I got the picture.

So after we got home from field service this afternoon, I hit the hay. Good eight hour rest! I is content. :)

Now to catch everyone up. Okay, let's start with the doctor's visit. It was actually quite uneventful. I was asked some questions, the doctor checked up on me a little, and then he gave me something to see if it helps the problem. If it doesn't, I come back in a month and if it does I don't have to worry about it.

Second thing. After freaking nagging me to the death in the car, I finally got home from my grandma's. She called my stepdad a few hours later to basically say that the conditions still apply (I told her I wasn't giving up my laptop).

Well, I'm still not all that eager to live their if it works like that. So it's not going to happen. Because while I was staying there, I could hear her talking on the phone to people like me. She made me sound like I was going to be this enormous burden, in more ways than one. It's surprising how little she knows me. All I wanted from them was a place to stay and nothing else. Not food, not clothes, not transportation, or pretty much anything else you can think of. In fact, the only other thing I wanted was to have my computer where I can use it.

Does that sound like I'm asking too much? People have told me so, but I don't think so.

Either way, it looks like it might work out. Despite all of the arguments we get in and disagreements on things, you guys have to know that my stepdad is actually pretty awesome. Because of his work, he makes a lot of connections with people of all sorts of trades.

The very day after my fate at my grandmother's was finalized, he'd gone to do a floor. Naturally, he does a lot of taking with the people who are getting the floor to make sure things work out okay and etc. Not to mention regular chatting that we all do, you know?

Well, this guy happens to have a son. And his son happens to lease apartments way up where I'd need to move to. And one shall be available in about two weeks that's only a mile away from where I'd be working. :D

The rent's affordable. He's supposed to get back to us on whether or not it includes utilities and such, but besides that it sounds perfect to me. I really hope it works out. :3
 
 
Current Mood: calm
 
 
Pi90katana
03 September 2008 @ 10:43 pm

Well, things kinda got hectic. I'm currently at my grandmother's place again. My stepdad had a lot of work today, so he had to drop me off. Grandma took me to my drug test, and we're going to meet him tomorrow, at which point he'll take me to my doctor appointment.

Rargh. Craziness. XD

For starters with the drug test... well, it could've gone better, I think. I uh... >.> Wasn't aware I needed to go to the bathroom until it came time to provide the sample. >.< So embarrassing! Glad it's done with.

And while I have never taken drugs, I still worry about it. Like- will prescriptions I had a few weeks ago show up? What about certain foods? Could any of that prevent me from getting hired? Ack- I'm just so worried! I have to get this job. I'll never get out on my own without it.

I'm still waiting for my grandma to come in here and start up with the 'rules' for my staying with them. Has to be discussed at some point, so I'm surprised we haven't already. :/

Anyways, later we actually went back to that Wal*Mart to get a few things. And while I was there... well, I decided what the hell. I treated myself. Or rather, my laptop. XD I bought a cooling pad for it, as well as some compressed air. Also got a USB cord for my printer. (pets technology) I spoil it. Ya know- in hopes it'll behave.

All righty then. I think I actually need to go fill out those forms for my doctor visit tomorrow. Bit important. Maybe when I get home tomorrow I'll work some more on the Fanfic Certificates. R.R. Ten'ou at Stealthy Stories got the design to me, and I have four categories done. Those I IM on a regular basis will get theirs via AIM. If I know you on LJ, you'll probably get a heads up from me when yours is done. If I can find your email, I'll email them to you. If not, I can PM you on some forum or another. I should be able to find everyone, I think. ...I hope. O.o

 
 
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Pi90katana
02 September 2008 @ 05:52 pm
Well, I got up and took the long trip to that Wal*Mart for my interview. It went... surprisingly well, I think! Some of the questions I was asked had me scrambling for intelligent replies. It was a lot of example stuff- like 'what have you done that demonstrates this and etc'. I fumbled my words and had to take some time to think now and then, but I think I did well.

I had three interviewers- getting to the second took longer than it was supposed to because their computer system went down. Once it was up though I was good to go. They told me what I'd be doing and everything and showed me all the details, so I think they're interested at least! :D

The position is temporary. They're doing rennovations right now so they need extra hands. If I'm hired, I'll be unloading things and stocking items all around the store. The pay is $7.40 an hour, and I'll work five days a week with two consecutive days off. The hours are from 4 PM to 1 AM, so that's gonna cut a lot into some things I do in my spare time. :/ But hey- a job's a job!

Best part is that everyone was really friendly. I think I'd like working there. ^_^ The one lady who had me finish up with the papers and stuff even welcomed me to the team! She also said if there are no attendance problems with me and if I do a lot of good work, they'll probably keep me. Especially with the holiday season coming up.

After we finished there we went to my grandma's. Again she said we could probably work something out. After we left, she called us back with two requirements for me staying there- My laptop has to stay in the big house and I have to apologize to my father. I'll suck it up and do that last one, but I'm not going for the first one. If I'm getting off work at one o'clock in the morning, I won't be coming into their house when I got off work to use my computer. For one, I'll wake everyone up, but most importantly, it's mine and I pay for it. If I have to do something when I get home, that'll cause a lot of problems.

Anyways, another thing I have to work out is transportation. Getting to work isn't the problem, but getting home is. As I can't drive yet, finding a way home at one in the morning will be hard. The shuttle doesn't run at the time, and no one will come get me, I'm sure. Maybe I can find someone there to run me home for a little while. Until I can drive, at least.

I'm working on that problem too. I needed a valid ID anyways for my drug test tomorrow (for which I have to go back up there to do), so my stepdad took me to the DMV. He had to renew his license anyways, so it worked out. I didn't even have to bring anything this time! I have a valid permit again! Whoo! 

...Though I liked the picture on my old one better. XD

So yeah- we're gonna work on that as well. Hopefully I'll be on the road soon. Can get a bank account as well now. Yayness. ^_^

I really hope I get this job. I think I'll do well at it, even though I'll be on my feet most of the day. And the better I do, the better chance I have to be moved up the employment ladder. I'm excited! I really hope all goes well! 

Be back later with memeage.
 
 
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Pi90katana
27 August 2008 @ 10:24 pm
Today has been... odd. It's just left me drained.

Earlier today, I did get a call from the first temp agency I applied to. But it was really weird. A recorded message- and it went so fast I couldn't really understand what I was being told. The gist of it is that there's a job available. And while I was told what it was, I didn't have enough time to porcess it, so I actually don't know. Figures that the one thing I did hear was the pay- $9.50 an hour. When it finished, I was told to press '1' if I was interested and '2' if I wasn't. A job's a job, so I took the first option. Then the recording thanked me and said bye. 

I don't think I'll hear back about it, to be honest. It just seems unlikely. But who knows.

Anyways, as for the rest of the day, it was mainly filled with stomach pains, bloody bathroom visits, and chores. Not much time for writing.

And then tonight... my parents and I had a talk. It wasn't really bad, to be honest. I just hate these discussions because they take so much out of me. They wanted to know what my exit plan is. And as we all know, it's quite fucked up. I can't drive, no steady source of income, and no idea where I'll live once they're gone. I'm gonna call grandma tomorrow and see if maybe she can give me an answer to that last one. 

To get back to the point, my parents told me that I need to know what I'm going to do by the time they leave. This means I need a place to stay and a job. If I don't have these two things... it sounds like I'll be moving with them whether I like it or not. And really, I'm not in much of a place to argue. I have no ground to stand on in such a debate.

They asked me what I wanted. I said I just want to be alone... I'm so tired of people. When I was asked if I'm happy with the way I am, I said I usually am until people make me feel bad about it. It's the truth- I enjoy just hanging around the house for the most part. I like using my computer and I like going to see a movie every once in a while. I like going to Wal*Mart, despite how crappy they've been to me lately. It's simple, and for now, that's good for me.

My stepdad said that's why they find it so hard to relate to me. Neither one of them has ever been happy with the minimum. They've always wanted more and wanted better. Whereas I'm fine for the most part just sticking to what I know. Yes, there are things I would like to be better- I'd like a steadier job, for one, and maybe do a little travel. After that, I don't really care. Maybe I will someday, but right now I don't.

I think he was being sarcastic, but my stepdad asked if I'd just like for them to find me a place and give me a few month's rent and then go. I said yes. That'd be great actually. As to their question of what I'd do when the money's gone... Well, yes I am stupid. I said I'd be looking for a job before that and that I'm sure something would work out. Ya know- when that hasn't happened for a year.

To be honest? I think I'm destined to do very little with my life and die young. I just don't see much for me. I'm nothing special and don't aspire to be anymore. Any people I meet in real life either end up hating me or me hating them, so I doubt I'll have much of a future family to live for. I don't know if I'm okay with it, but I'm not totally crushed. Resigned, I suppose would be the word. 

Anyways, I don't think I'll have that chapter for Cork up tomorrow. I'm gonna work on it yet again, but it doesn't look promising.

 
 
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Pi90katana
24 August 2008 @ 11:52 pm
Gah. Got a headache.

I've finished two pages of Cork today. Yay me. >.< 

Don't worry, I'm still working on it. Tomorrow I will, especially. I'm making it like my day off, of sorts. Er, besides chores.  (sigh) Still gotta do those. 

My diverticulitis is really acting up at the moment. Jeez, I feel so old when I say that. >.< But it is. Really hurts to go to the bathroom right now.

My stepdad made me oatmeal and that helped some. Was the only kind act I think I received today. While trying to relax, my mom suddenly comes into my room and informs me I'm buying pizza. 

And yes, I shall clariy for you. I was not asked if I could buy the pizza, nor if I minded chipping in. I was told I was buying it.

Seriously, did everyone in my family decided to be an asshole to me this month? Because it sure feels like it.

Well, they can make me go camping, but I wasn't about to let them make me give up my money when I have so little of it. And when they could obviously pay or it themselves, which they did. 

I was actually told that if I didn't pay for it, I couldn't have dinner. That makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I did eat some pizza anyways, inorming my mother when I took it that since I'm not getting paid for the chores, I'll eat their pizza if I want to. Went to my room and oddly didn't hear a complaint. Then again, my stepdad wasn't home at the time, so that likely helped. >.>

I'm hoping I hear back from that burger joint soon. Or anywhere I've applied. I need money badly. Now my parents are telling me that if I don't get my act together, I'm moving with them whether I like it or not. And despite knowing they technically can't do that, I wouldn't be surprised if it happens anyways. Nevertheless, I'm going to fight it. I can't live with them anymore.
 
 
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Pi90katana
14 August 2008 @ 10:39 pm
Well, my piece for Shadows of the End was turned in around one in the afternoon today. Yay! I don't have to join the Foot! XD

I'm actually kinda proud of it, though. That robin has had a lot of loose ends, as can't always be avoided with five authors and various exciting plot twists. But I kinda wrapped a big one up today, I think. Before the Shadows became what they did in the story, we had this thing going on with some other random people and a truck. Last night I was thinking of that and then all of a sudden it occurred to me how to bring them back in! So yeah, I'm happy. ^_^

So I'm starting to write a little again, which is always good. :D Now to get the rest of my life together. >.< I'm really going to try and get on that in the weeks to come. Need to get another driving permit too.

Really hope I can make things work for me. I need this. I know there's so much I have to work on... but it's better than going insane. 

Here's a meme I've seen from various people for a while now:

1. Where is your cell phone? Nonexistent
2. Where is your significant other? Future
3. Your hair? Wet
4. Your mother? Sleeping
5. Your father? Troublesome
6. Your favorite thing? Laptop
7. Your dream last night? Blank
8. Your dream/goal? Independence
9. The room you're in? Bedroom
10. Your hobby? Writing
11. Your fear? Dolls
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Australia
13. Where were you last night? Here
14. What you're not? Athletic
15. Muffins? Chocolate
16. One of your wish list items? Scanner
17. Where you grew up? Idaho
18. The last thing you did? Typed
19. What are you wearing? Shirt
20. Your TV? On
21. Your pet? Orange
22. Your computer? Running
23. Your life? Crappy
24. Your mood? Complacent
25. Missing someone? No
26. Your car? Imagined
27. Something you're not wearing? Socks
28. Favorite store? Wal*Mart
29. Your summer? Unoriginal
30. Love someone? Yes
31. Your favorite color? Green
32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Night
 
 
Current Mood: complacent
 
 
Pi90katana
14 July 2008 @ 11:52 pm

I've been thinking hard lately on what to do with my life. None of my questions have anything to do with the ones my grandmother enjoys firing at me with an assault rifle- questions I've had in mind for quite a while, thank you very much. Rather, they're made in consideration of my loathing for them.

Originally, my plan was to stay in my grandma's little guest house. However, when I was up there, I began to look at that plan with a bit more logic. My grandma happens to be a clean freak who blows at the tiniest things. If I were to live there, she'd want to clean the place like every day. And since that's a prospect I know she doesn't look forward to, that would make my chances of living there slim.

This would mean I would have to stay in her house. This is something I refuse to do. I mean, at least with my stepdad I can do some reasoning. It's pointless trying that with my grandma- she doesn't listen at all. I don't claim to always be right, but I do know a lot. And hell, I know myself much better than most people, and that's a subject I'm tired of arguing about. So that's not happening.

I know at this point, I can't afford to be picky. But I also can't afford a murder sentence. Or the bill for room and board at the insane asylum. Whichever comes first.

Luckily, my friend's sister actually said I could stay with her. That'd be so much better. Their dad owns this little trailer park. Heh, if I could get a steady source of income, getting one for myself might not be too far-fetched.... Hopefully.

Whatever I do, I need to go somewhere that will give me both my privacy and room to lead my own life. Rules are very important, I think, but I can no longer bear with the ones that have been constricting me my whole life. I'm eighteen, not four. I should be able to make some life decisions for myself now. I know I'm not the most mature person, but I'm old enough now that that shouldn't play a factor still.

....So that's my rant. >.>

Anyways, I got to see my sibs today! They were watching Sharkboy and Lavagirl (Ick >.<). My sister sat on my lap and shared her snack with me. She showed me all of her new toys too (Kitty-kitty and Dinosaury XD). It was fun. And my brother's really into superheroes now. Whoo! I left my mark!

Dad took me home. It was... surprisingly not awful. O.o He only asked me what I was planning on doing after mom left and didn't bring up anything else. Maybe he's finally gotten the point? I hope so.

All right. Time for bed and stuff. You know what to do!

Adopt one today! 

Adopt one today!
  

Wow. The little silver one had like a hundred more unique views than the paper one! Thanks! But my poor little paper dragon... ;_;
 
 
Current Mood: stressed
 
 
Pi90katana
01 July 2008 @ 12:08 am
So nice to finally be back home. (snuggles with Leo plushie) That car was getting cramped!

Thanks to everyone who responded to me other post. I'm feeling a lot better now, thankfully! Was able to go to the third and final day of the convention, as well as to the Japanese Gardens later that day. It was so beautiful! There were these flowers that looked like butterflies, and such magnificent waterfalls and fountains! And the zen gardens! And omigod- the koi fish! O.O They were huge! Like, one and a half feet long!

But yes- I had a lovely time. ^_^ Got lots of presents for lots of people- I hope to have them out soon, though I seem to have reached my first road block.

Tomorrow, my stepdad is going to find out whether or not he gets this big job. If he does, my family will likely be moving to New Mexico by the end of August. O.O;

So for starters, this means I need to work on finding that place to live. Which means I need to make more money at my job. Which also means that I need to learn how to drive. Which also means that my stepdad may make me use some of my graduation money to get into driver's school. (headdesk) God dammit. He was supposed to teach me! (grumbles)

Anyways- yes. I do still hope to ship those presents off soon! I must make sure they're packed properly though- some are breakable.
 
 
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