Well, I got up and took the long trip to that Wal*Mart for my interview. It went... surprisingly well, I think! Some of the questions I was asked had me scrambling for intelligent replies. It was a lot of example stuff- like 'what have you done that demonstrates this and etc'. I fumbled my words and had to take some time to think now and then, but I think I did well.

I had three interviewers- getting to the second took longer than it was supposed to because their computer system went down. Once it was up though I was good to go. They told me what I'd be doing and everything and showed me all the details, so I think they're interested at least! :D

The position is temporary. They're doing rennovations right now so they need extra hands. If I'm hired, I'll be unloading things and stocking items all around the store. The pay is $7.40 an hour, and I'll work five days a week with two consecutive days off. The hours are from 4 PM to 1 AM, so that's gonna cut a lot into some things I do in my spare time. :/ But hey- a job's a job!

Best part is that everyone was really friendly. I think I'd like working there. ^_^ The one lady who had me finish up with the papers and stuff even welcomed me to the team! She also said if there are no attendance problems with me and if I do a lot of good work, they'll probably keep me. Especially with the holiday season coming up.

After we finished there we went to my grandma's. Again she said we could probably work something out. After we left, she called us back with two requirements for me staying there- My laptop has to stay in the big house and I have to apologize to my father. I'll suck it up and do that last one, but I'm not going for the first one. If I'm getting off work at one o'clock in the morning, I won't be coming into their house when I got off work to use my computer. For one, I'll wake everyone up, but most importantly, it's mine and I pay for it. If I have to do something when I get home, that'll cause a lot of problems.

Anyways, another thing I have to work out is transportation. Getting to work isn't the problem, but getting home is. As I can't drive yet, finding a way home at one in the morning will be hard. The shuttle doesn't run at the time, and no one will come get me, I'm sure. Maybe I can find someone there to run me home for a little while. Until I can drive, at least.

I'm working on that problem too. I needed a valid ID anyways for my drug test tomorrow (for which I have to go back up there to do), so my stepdad took me to the DMV. He had to renew his license anyways, so it worked out. I didn't even have to bring anything this time! I have a valid permit again! Whoo! 

...Though I liked the picture on my old one better. XD

So yeah- we're gonna work on that as well. Hopefully I'll be on the road soon. Can get a bank account as well now. Yayness. ^_^

I really hope I get this job. I think I'll do well at it, even though I'll be on my feet most of the day. And the better I do, the better chance I have to be moved up the employment ladder. I'm excited! I really hope all goes well! 

Be back later with memeage.

Firstly, I'd like to thank everyone for their kind comments on my last entry. They went a long way in cheering me up. I was feeling really down last night and just felt about as worthwhile as a puddle of vomit on the floor. So yeah... Thanks, guys. (hugs) It means a lot to me when you guys support me like that. :)

So now I have some good news and bad news. To start with the bad really quick, I'm bleeding more than before and actually found blood in my stool today. >.< Not good. Doctor appointment is soon though, so I'm trying not to get worried.

Now for the great news. This morning I was awakened prematurely to the phone ringing. I'm really glad it was in my room and not in the living room, otherwise I probably wouldn't have bothered getting up to answer it. But, since it was in my room, I made myself roll over to check the caller ID.

It said Wal*Mart.

That woke me right up. I answered the phone and a woman, once confirming it was me, asked if I was still interested in working there. You can guess my response. :D

She asked if I could come in for an interview tomorrow at nine in the morning and I agreed. I was so excited I couldn't go back to sleep. About an hour later though, I suddenly remembered that I've applied at two separate stores. I'm glad I went back and checked the number, because the store that's asking for me is the one up where my grandma lives.

That's like, a little over an hour away. So damn, I would have had to wake up early!

And yes, I am speaking in the past tense. The woman called me back later and apologized- she'd forgotten that tomorrow starts the holiday weekend so some people, including the interviewer, wouldn't be there. So we rescheduled for Tuesday at the same time. This at least gives me time to prepare, though.

I really hope I get this job. It's nice to at least be hearing something from them, though! Don't feel so ignored now. Kinda funny though- I apply to my local store like every month and then a few weeks ago I randomly decided to send an application to the other one. And what do ya know? Victory!

Another note- the lady on the phone seemed so much nicer than the people I talk to when I bug the store down the street for an update on my application. She was very polite and it was a friendly exchange. Encourages me muchly. ^_^

Today has been... odd. It's just left me drained.

Earlier today, I did get a call from the first temp agency I applied to. But it was really weird. A recorded message- and it went so fast I couldn't really understand what I was being told. The gist of it is that there's a job available. And while I was told what it was, I didn't have enough time to porcess it, so I actually don't know. Figures that the one thing I did hear was the pay- $9.50 an hour. When it finished, I was told to press '1' if I was interested and '2' if I wasn't. A job's a job, so I took the first option. Then the recording thanked me and said bye. 

I don't think I'll hear back about it, to be honest. It just seems unlikely. But who knows.

Anyways, as for the rest of the day, it was mainly filled with stomach pains, bloody bathroom visits, and chores. Not much time for writing.

And then tonight... my parents and I had a talk. It wasn't really bad, to be honest. I just hate these discussions because they take so much out of me. They wanted to know what my exit plan is. And as we all know, it's quite fucked up. I can't drive, no steady source of income, and no idea where I'll live once they're gone. I'm gonna call grandma tomorrow and see if maybe she can give me an answer to that last one. 

To get back to the point, my parents told me that I need to know what I'm going to do by the time they leave. This means I need a place to stay and a job. If I don't have these two things... it sounds like I'll be moving with them whether I like it or not. And really, I'm not in much of a place to argue. I have no ground to stand on in such a debate.

They asked me what I wanted. I said I just want to be alone... I'm so tired of people. When I was asked if I'm happy with the way I am, I said I usually am until people make me feel bad about it. It's the truth- I enjoy just hanging around the house for the most part. I like using my computer and I like going to see a movie every once in a while. I like going to Wal*Mart, despite how crappy they've been to me lately. It's simple, and for now, that's good for me.

My stepdad said that's why they find it so hard to relate to me. Neither one of them has ever been happy with the minimum. They've always wanted more and wanted better. Whereas I'm fine for the most part just sticking to what I know. Yes, there are things I would like to be better- I'd like a steadier job, for one, and maybe do a little travel. After that, I don't really care. Maybe I will someday, but right now I don't.

I think he was being sarcastic, but my stepdad asked if I'd just like for them to find me a place and give me a few month's rent and then go. I said yes. That'd be great actually. As to their question of what I'd do when the money's gone... Well, yes I am stupid. I said I'd be looking for a job before that and that I'm sure something would work out. Ya know- when that hasn't happened for a year.

To be honest? I think I'm destined to do very little with my life and die young. I just don't see much for me. I'm nothing special and don't aspire to be anymore. Any people I meet in real life either end up hating me or me hating them, so I doubt I'll have much of a future family to live for. I don't know if I'm okay with it, but I'm not totally crushed. Resigned, I suppose would be the word. 

Anyways, I don't think I'll have that chapter for Cork up tomorrow. I'm gonna work on it yet again, but it doesn't look promising.

Gah! I have no idea if I'm going to be able to finish this by Thursaday! (headdesk)

I just keep on procrastinating and procrastinating... I've literally sat in front of a blank word document for an hour, just trying to continue. And nothing comes. It's madness.

I'm going to try again tonight. I know I keep saying that, but I got to get back to this. 

Anyways, outside of writing, life still isn't going so well. I was turned down at that burger joint, and I'm still getting nothing from Wal*Mart. I applied at three different temp agenices and the post office today as well. God, I just want someone to hire me. I once pulled weeds for two months at a penny per weed- I ain't picky here! 

I'm beginning to get the feeling that I'll never have a real job. I mean, they're closing DHL in two months, so that's a few more thousand into the unemployed batch we got going on here. And I'm betting that any of those people will get hired before me. The few that are hiring want people with experience, and I just don't have enough. This really sucks.

Gah. Got a headache.

I've finished two pages of Cork today. Yay me. >.< 

Don't worry, I'm still working on it. Tomorrow I will, especially. I'm making it like my day off, of sorts. Er, besides chores.  (sigh) Still gotta do those. 

My diverticulitis is really acting up at the moment. Jeez, I feel so old when I say that. >.< But it is. Really hurts to go to the bathroom right now.

My stepdad made me oatmeal and that helped some. Was the only kind act I think I received today. While trying to relax, my mom suddenly comes into my room and informs me I'm buying pizza. 

And yes, I shall clariy for you. I was not asked if I could buy the pizza, nor if I minded chipping in. I was told I was buying it.

Seriously, did everyone in my family decided to be an asshole to me this month? Because it sure feels like it.

Well, they can make me go camping, but I wasn't about to let them make me give up my money when I have so little of it. And when they could obviously pay or it themselves, which they did. 

I was actually told that if I didn't pay for it, I couldn't have dinner. That makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I did eat some pizza anyways, inorming my mother when I took it that since I'm not getting paid for the chores, I'll eat their pizza if I want to. Went to my room and oddly didn't hear a complaint. Then again, my stepdad wasn't home at the time, so that likely helped. >.>

I'm hoping I hear back from that burger joint soon. Or anywhere I've applied. I need money badly. Now my parents are telling me that if I don't get my act together, I'm moving with them whether I like it or not. And despite knowing they technically can't do that, I wouldn't be surprised if it happens anyways. Nevertheless, I'm going to fight it. I can't live with them anymore.

Oh, today has been significantly better than yesterday! ^_^

So much good news! For starters, we have a new cat. We may not keep her- she obviously belongs to someone. Her fur is really soft and clean, she's litter-box trained, and she knows to eat out of the little food tray we have. But we've been to two neighborhoods so far and no one's claimed her.

So if no one does, it looks like we'll take her in. She's really sweet. Klunk isn't too fond at her, but they don't fight anymore. She looks a lot like him too; she's just smaller, with darker eyes and more white fur than he has. Both orange tabbies, though. 

It looks like we're going to be calling her Angel. If we keep her, she'll be my brother's cat, so he got to pick the name. At least we kept the TMNT theme. :)

More good news- I got something in the mail today for a company called Vector. I looked them up online- they sell kitchen cutlery. Anyways, they sent me a letter saying they have openings for summer work. By the time I got the letter, it was too late to call and set up an interview, so I'll try tomorrow.

But get this- they pay $14.50 an hour! O.O Isn't that freaking awesome? I've only been asking for like, six dollars on all of my other applications!

It'd be a dream if I got that job. I hope I can get an interview. They suggested applicants call ASAP. (crosses fingers)

And finally- the ultimate news. 

TT released their picks for the new villain in the RP. Make that villains- there's three! And I'm one of them! SQUEEEE! XD

Lvsinsanity shall be playing Hun, and ivy_chan as Baxter Stockman. I, of course, shall be playing Agent Bishop. :D Who else would I be? XD

It's such a honor to be working with these authors! I can't wait!

And now I'm like totally inspired to go work on my Casey audition. (zooms off!) 

 

It appears I have a lot of stuff to focus on. Some aren't new, such as my never-ending job search or recent computer difficulties. Then there's that RP audition I still have to get back to, as well as my own fiction.

Got two new ones though, along with one that's getting a higher rank on my priority list.

I need to start putting a little more thought into my graduation party. We can't have it on the fourteenth like I'd hoped because my stepdad will be out of town then. Mom suggested the end of May, but I'm not to keen on that. Some people need more notice for these kind of things. And perhaps I'm being a brat, but I'd also like to get something for my graduation. With less time, some people might not be able to come up with anything. Not that I want much, but you know. Something besides a collection of Hallmark greeting cards would be nice. XD

So it's probably going to be on June 21 now. Really, I think this works out much better now. If we were going to have it earlier, I was told that we wouldn't really have announcements until after the party. Like doing it backwards. I find that just strange, and I don't like the idea of it. I don't want my party to be last-minute, especially considering how much time we had to do it. I mean, I graduated in September. Had I had it my way, this would've been done by now.

Next thing is something my stepdad brought up with me tonight. He thinks I should start considering getting baptized seriously now. I don't know... I'm not really that comfortable with it. I mean, I want to, but I don't think I'm ready. My religion differs from a lot of others in the sense that we don't get baptized until we ourselves can make the conscious decsion to commit our lives to Jehovah. I don't think I'm ready. 

My stepdad says I should do it anyways though, reasoning that I already know enough to be held accountable, as baptized brothers and sisters are. That disturbed me a little, but I got over it soon enough. If that's the case, than I can live with it. But dedicating your life to God through baptism, to me, is an entirely different matter. I'm not a very spiritual person at this time, so I think that would just be like going through the motions. Don't get me wrong, I love my religion, and God too, but again- I don't think I'm ready. Maybe in a few years.  

And finally, time with Dad, of course. For the record, I did call him back. He wasn't home though. I left a message, which he didn't return until about the time we were leaving for the meeting, so I didn't bother to answer. From the sound of his message, he had some time off. I couldn't tell if it'd been today or tomorrow... guess I'll find out tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow, I'm going to do down to a bank and see if maybe they'd be interested in hiring me. Maybe I'll luck out. Also, I finished that assessment for that job employment agency. Hoping to hear from them soon.

All right. Now for some more questions! These are, as far as I know, the last that I've recieved. I know there were some people I responded to who didn't ask me any, or haven't yet, but if I missed someone, please tell me!

So here we go- questions for my good friend tori_angeli!

1. Of any TMNT character, which one would you choose to sit by on a 20-hour flight and why?

Leo. Why? Uh... because I'm me. And as me, that is an obvious choice! XD

Really, I'd love to just talk to him. If he were willing, I think he'd make an excellent conversationalist. I wouldn't bother him too much, of course- wouldn't want to be rude. Maybe ask him about some Ninjitsu techniques or what books he likes to read. I love books, and I think we'd find common ground there. Perhaps stories about younger siblings, too. XD

If Leo didn't really want to deal with me for the whole twenty hours, I might go sit by some of the others for brief periods. Again, there'd be so much to talk about! I'm actually not very picky- I'd be willing to go on and on about superheroes with Mikey, or listen to Donny babbble on about how planes work; I could get some advice from Splinter (Lord knows I need it!) or talk with Raph about motorcycles.

To sit by any of them would be a honor. :D

2. How did you fall in love with TMNT?

It all goes back to that awful room crisis I had in one of the houses I stayed with my dad in. The one where I had to share a room with the baby and his crib and all sorts of various items that were moved into my room, most of which were non-functional.

At some point, a compromise was made and they fixed up the television that had been dumped in my room. For a few hours a day, I was permitted to go in my room alone and watch it. I'd seen snippets of the show a few times; I distinctly recall seeing the first half of Notes From the Underground Part 1 at my mother's. Anyways, when this time came along, they were part way through the Turtles in Space episodes. I found them highly entertaining and loved the characters. Leo's personality, in particular, fascinated me.

I'd only seen three episodes when I was at Wal*Mart with my mom one day. We were by the electronics when I spotted the Meet Casey Jones release on VHS. She bought it for me, and I indulged, growing a little more interested with each episode.

However, I was dying for something a little more angsty, like I'd seen in the fifth Turtles in Space episode. At a different Wal*Mart, with my grandma this time, I found the VHS release of The Shredder Strikes Back. I can still remember reading the synopsis on the back and bouncing up and down with delight! It sounded absolutely thrilling, and it also appeared like it as going to have something to do with my favorite character. Which it did, of course! XD

Oh, those episodes were amazing! That's what did me in. It was everything I'd ever wanted in a show and more. And as I became more enthralled with it, the more I would turn to it to relieve my stress in regards to how life was turning out. 

TMNT has kept me sane. That's the icing on the cake for why I love it.

3. If you dyed or highlighted your hair with an inhuman color (purple, blue, green, pink, etc), what would it be?

You know, I've always wanted a white highlight on my bang. However, that's a human color and therefore out. XD

Hmm... I think blue. A light blue, like a cotton candy color. :D I think that'd be cool.

4. Where is your happy place?

In RL? Definitely my room. I always feel safest there. It's my domain. And I have all of my favorite things in there, whereas I have very little else in the rest of the world. It's also... well, it's me. :) The mess, and what little is organized. It's all a reflection of me. :D

After that, my happy place is probably online. There's just something about it, I guess- having the world at your fingertips. And I never felt so appreciated until I became Pi. I really needed that. I swear it saved my life. ^_^

5. You and your friends are camping when it starts to rain. The tent collapses. You have to put it back up in the dead of the night in the rain. Are you having a great time laughing about this with your pals, or calculating how far it is to the nearest hotel where you can stay up all night watching free cable and pestering the people at the front desk?

Heheh... it just depends! I absolutely love the rain. In all actuality, when it was dry I was probably wanting to go to the hotel. I love cable, don't get it enough, and would probably be content with staying in a room and enjoying myself.

However- the minute it started raining? I'd so be there to stay! Rain is one of my absolute favorite things. :D


All right. Time for bed. I'm so tired. Just realized I only got like three hours of sleep last night with no naps today. >.< It's time for me to sleep.

Man, I'd forgotten how good fresh oranges taste. My neighbor has this little orange tree and she gave me one today. It was smaller than the ones I see in stores, but it was very, very sweet. Delicious. ^_^

That employment agency finally emailed me back! I was getting so worried! There's some sort of online assessment I have to take next, so I'll be doing that after lunch.

And my dad called. >.> I didn't pick up. But I suppose if I want to be the 'adult' and prove myself responsible instead of being a brat... I should call him back. Will do that after lunch too. 

Really hoping I don't regret it.

I am having an awful day. And it's just barely the afternoon.

I went to Wal*Mart today. Here- let's recap my last visit.

Pi: Umm... Hi. I'd like to talk to Dawn about the status of my application, please.
Lady: Let me call her.
Pi: Okay. 
Lady: (talks on phone) All right. So we're actually not hiring right now. She just hired some people a few weeks ago, so she won't be hiring again for three weeks.
Pi:  Oh. Well all right... Thank you.

Three weeks are up. So I went in, trying to be more confident as I've been instructed.

Pi: Hi, I'm here to talk to Dawn. I'd like to discuss the status of my application, please.
Woman: Well, she might be at lunch right now. But I'll call her. One moment, please.
Pi: Thank you.
Woman: (talks on phone) We're currently not hiring anyone at this time. 
Pi: Are you sure? Because I was told three weeks ago that now you'd be hiring.
Woman: Yes. That's what I was told, at least.
Pi: ...Okay. Thanks for your time.

Fucking Wal*Mart. I'm done with it. 

So I decided to go apply at Albertson's. There computer application system was really aggravating, but on the plus side, they didn't ask for references! Yay!

So now I'm at home and I decided to look up more stuff on what my computer's problem could be.

And I was right. It all goes back to the bloody ISP. Here's something I found on their lists of prohibited activities:

Excess Utilization of Network Resources.  You may not use the Service or take any action, directly or indirectly, that will result in excessive consumption or utilization of the system or network resources (i.e. excessive peer to peer applications or continuous FTP uploading or downloading, or commercial purposes (except where permitted by Clearwire)), or which may weaken network performance, as determined in Clearwire’s sole discretion.  Clearwire may use various network tools and methods in order to efficiently manage its networks and to ensure compliance with this Acceptable Use Policy.  These may include detecting malicious traffic patterns and preventing the distribution of viruses or other malicious code, internet port monitoring and managing network resources through techniques such as limiting the aggregate bandwidth available for certain bandwidth intensive protocols such as peer-to-peer applications and newsgroups.

Anyone remember the problems I had with UTorrent? I think I know where they came from now. My computer never was the same actually after that first time I used it.

I'm going to uninstall it and hope that helps. But it really ticks me off. 

Now, I do have some good news to report. The Stealthy Stories People Awards are finally done, and I won two awards! :D Yay for me!

My awards were Most Admiring New Toon Advocate, and Most Obsessive Leonardo Fan (I tied with kay_cricketed).

That's my second time winning that last one. :D Wahoo!

As if any of my posts stay on topic. XD 

Well, I've been playing a lot of Hearts on my computer today. I got a perfect score. :D I was so proud, I took a screen shot image of it, just so I could have proof. >.> 

Okay- onto relevant stuff XD. So today I went to this employment agency, and they told me to fill out an oline application. I'm going to try it in a little bit; would have earlier, but my computer froze up halfway through it and I didn't feel like starting again. I don't know how to answer some of the questions... 

The guy I talked to told me what McDonald's already said: Lately, employers are wanting workers with previous job experience. 

Sheesh. How is anyone under twenty supposed to get a job? I am not looking forward to the Summer- all of the kids getting out of high school will be looking for Summer jobs or something. Not going to help me any, obviously. 

Trying to come up with a good date for a graduation party. Most of my family members, I know, live close enough that they should be able to make it without much notice. I'm not going to have it really soon though. I'm thinking maybe early June... If we can get some invitations, I can mail them out to those relatives who live further away. Perhaps someone can make the jaunt up. 

I also need to call an old childhood friend of mine. He graduates at the end of the month, so I need to find out when he's having his party. Wouldn't want them to be on the same day, of course. 

Hmm... and just for the hell of it... >.> I've made a list of some things I'd be thrilled to get as a present. Of course, I know I'll get none of them, but it'd be cool. :D 

1. TMNT Return to New York comics 
2. TMNT NECA Figures 
3. Cold Cast Leonardo Statue (as seen here) 
4. Leonardo Statue (as seen here) 
5. A Scanner 

I know I can't get the fourth one. That's custom made. Doesn't stop me from wanting it, though! XD 

Oh yeah. One more thing before I go.... 

 

It's like my body decided to crash all at once. O.o 

I was getting set to write last night when I was asked to go into the Stealthy Stories Late Night chat and RP one of my canons. That was actually the first time I'd ever gotten to do something serious like that, and it was actually a lot of fun. 

Once everyone got tired and headed off, I thought I'd do the writing I swore I'd spend my time doing. Opened the document... and the words just refused to come. I finally gave up after two hours and decided to take a nap.

This was apparently the same breed of nap as my last one, for now it's nearly noon. >.<

I have an excuse today for not doing more job hunting- my siblings had the day off from school, and I had to watch them. But the mere thought of doing more searching is making me tired. I mean, I know I'm running out of time and all, but it's still too early in the game for me to be calling it quits.

There are chores to do. And I have no interest in even attempting them, though I will attribute that one to the kids being here. Nothing stays clean when they're around.

Gah. I wish rebooting a person was as easy as rebooting a computer. ;_; 

Anyways, now I have to go force myself to doing all of these things. Come on, Pi- reboot!

Went to four of the job sites I've made visits to before today. Same news as before from each of them. I probably would've gone farther, but the road construction people decided to make things more difficult for me today than they usually do. 

Anyways, came home and did a few more chores. Decided to take a 'nap'. 

....And now  it's nearly midnight. O.O

Well, I'm up. Might as well write some more.

All right. So, I took a five hour nap today. Only been up for two hours. So you know I won't be going back to bed anytime soon. 

I'm getting a bit tired of making no progress anywhere. Not in my job search, not in my writing- I'm getting nowhere. 

I sadly can't do too much more with this job thing. And not just because my thirty days are steadily coming to a close, but because despite how many times I go back to a place, it only seems to be a waste of time. I don't care what my stepdad says- being persistent doesn't guarantee you a job. 

I'm of course going to do some more about this on Tuesday. I'd walk into town tomorrow too, but the road work they're doing is going to make it really difficult for me to cross the street. Fifteen foot deep holes will do that. They'll have moved a little farther by Tuesday, and I'll have better access to a good crossing point without having to worry about getting killed. Plus, the new Avatar DVD comes out on Tuesday, so that's as good excuse as any to go to Wal*Mart, as well as some of the businesses by it.

In the mean time, I think I'm going to try another all-nighter. I really want to get some more writing done. I thought I would've been able to while I was sick, but apparently being ill made me less motivated.

So tonight, I'm going to see if I can finish the Casey audition. At the very least, get some more of it done. I have another audition I plan on doing as well, and that one has a deadline. I think it will actually be easier to get down, simply because I have a clearer picture of it in my head. It's not as long, either. 

Now, I'm going to go take a shower. I'm all stuffed up since I woke up from my nap- I think Klunk (my cat) paid me a visit while I slept. Silly ninja kitty- he knows I'm allergic to him.