Ah, the magic of Bipolar disorder. Frequent right turns into depression suck, of course, but when you take a left back into mania? Everything's all better again. I don't know why.

Anyways, I think that had to do something with why I was so emotional about missing the wedding. I feel better now, though. Am contemplating sending him a gift too. Maybe if I can get a hold of his mom, I can find out if there's something they could use for their new house or something....

In the mean time, I have driver's ed in less than an hour, and it comes with two exams. >.<

(studies)

Today has been a rather awful day. Even the little things have sucked.

Started out by going to get that Thriller Chiller I told you guys about (as I ran out of time yesterday to do so). Whoever made it was an idiot. Got no whipped cream or cinnamon, it was much thicker than last time (this time I was not given a spoon, so it kinda sucked at the end), there was way too much Butterfinger, and I'm pretty sure they left out the coffee part, as it tasted a little different. That last part I didn't mind so much, as the mocha flavor was pretty subtle to being with. Still, I was bummed.

Then came the truck- 2000 pieces and five people to unload it. Because the day crew didn't finish setting up for it, we were thirty minutes late starting it. Then a grocery truck came, a frozen truck, and about eight carry-outs that kept us from out job. The truck itself was dusty as hell- if you ran your finger through it it would have the thickness of paint. The boxes themselves were loaded like shit- at one point a wall of them fell over on Billy, and right as he was upright another half toppled over him. I had to go inside and dig him out.

We finished half an hour late for lunch (which is good, considering the stops), but as Billy had to go home to take care of his mom, only four of us came back to pull. It took forever. While I was pulling a pallet, my finger got smashed. The result was half of the nail being bent backwards, taking the skin with it. Only it didn't rip the nail- I was able to shove it back into place and if it weren't for the bruise forming there you'd never know what happened. Hurts like hell, though.

Came home and tried to get online, only to be halted by my freaking ISP. I'd forgotten that my mom had gotten a new credit card, thus when it billed the old one it was obviously halted. Unfortunately, it took me two hours to get the stupid information changed. I ran into various roadblocks and finally said 'screw it' and put in my debit card info. Hope they won't have a problem with that. But whatever- it got me back online, and with how stressed I've been today, that's all I want.

Other than to build a time machine anyways.

Once again, I am left with no choice but to combine a whole bunch of stuff into one post. Because I seem to be too lazy to write up stuff as it happens these days.

So firstly, the fanfic comp is now over and finished rather smoothly. In the end we only had three ties, and none were for first place. Not bad at all. Everyone also seemed really pleased with how quickly the results were posted, so yay there as well. I was also pretty pleased with the results- a lot of my favorites won without me even having to vote for them. ^_^

Putting the hosting duties to the side, I myself was also on the ballot and was surprised to find myself watching the votes come in for me. 'Twas for the same story in two different categories- I got second place for Best Short Work and first for Best Villain.

That's... surprisingly good. The stories I was up against in both categories were like, really, really good. I went and reread mine to compare. I honestly can't see how they placed as high as they did. I mean, I don't think I sucked, but in comparison I find several fics to have been more deserving.

Seesaw was written on the spur of the moment, in the attempt to just write something and have it up in time for a goodfic flood. I like it, but I don't think it's anything special.

Not that I'm ungrateful! Because it's seriously nice to see people thought highly enough of it to vote for it. It just baffles me, I guess.

Nevertheless, yay! I wrote barely nothing and I still get recognized. I has not been forgotten. :3

Next matter of business- I watched Bolt online a couple of hours ago. OMG- I liked that movie a lot more than I thought I would. It had it's moments of total cuteness, but it also had some really developed characters. I loved all three of the animals (Bolt is the dog, obviously, and then there's Mittens the cat and Rhino the hamster). They just had so much personality. Oh, and the pigeons. Freaking hilarious. The Nemo jab was awesome. XD Really- it was totally great to watch. I may even buy it.

And because I can't talk about movies without at least one quote...

Bolt: There's a guard.
Rhino: I'll snap his neck.

And finally for something a little more serious.

Long rambling entry once again. Probably made no sense, but at least it's an entry.

Muah. Here's all of the little things that have slipped any previous posts by my own forgetfulness. I shall try and keep them short, for fear of having an entry that can be wrapped around the middle of the world.

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Thoughts on new co-workers:

I've known Patrick since starting at Wal*Mart. Uber nice guy- he was a cashier before this. Working with him more now is kinda weird though... but in a good way. Sorta. It's actually really hard to describe. In short, I've never met someone as sincerely happy as he is. The guy's never down, even when he says he's bummed about something. The glass isn't just full with him, it's like full of liquid sunshine and rainbows. Someone asked him yesterday where he gets all of his energy from and I kid you not, his answer was 'happiness'.

...Poor guy gets thrown into the ICS. The rest of us don't 'do' happy. XD

Anyways, worked with Jesse a few times before. He was also a cashier. Working with him for the past few weeks has given me enormous respect for him. He's everything I've wanted back there since forever. He's very pleasant to work with, and very attentive. In the first few days, whenever he was attempting something, he'd ask if it was right, or if I had any suggestions- all kinds of stuff. He's great at stacking and is already starting to get into the groove of how we behave around one another. Example from yesterday yet again, when Billy was getting some pallets down for everyone when we were doing picks:

Billy: Which pallet do you need, little girl?
Jesse: 24B- B as in 'bigmouth'.

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Last Wednesday I woke up to my cell ringing. I answered it and was informed by my grandma that I needed to be ready for her to pick me up in an hour as she'd signed me up for driver's training.

Yeah. I wtf'ed.

Anyways, went down to the DMV. Lady there is a bitch. I have to take the test for my permit again on Tuesday, and apparently I need an ID that was issued to me in 2004 to get it. What the hell? I never needed that thing for my last permit. Secondly, it would look nothing like me anymore with five years passed. And lastly- no one knows where it is. Ugh. Hope she isn't there when tomorrow.

But yeah. After that affair I went down to the high school and had to sit in a room with thirty other high school brats. Oy, it was painful. Good reminder for why I ended up home schooling myself. But I do appear to be getting special treatment. Schedules were handed out later in the day showing when classes are (my days off, out of luck) and when the driving groups will be driving. These groups don't tend to be on a Tuesday or Wednesday, and are actually split up all over the place. I went to talk to her later to point out that thosedays with those times wouldn't work for me no matter which driving group I was in, and found out she was making an exception for me due to work. I just get to drive with whoever. XD

One thing I'm not very pleased with though is the bill. Not nice to learn that I have to fork up $145 an hour after waking.

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Am going to visit mom Tuesday after driver's ed. Will be staying up there until Thursday, when my stepdad will bring me home before work. He's also picking me up. Translation: I have between when I get off work until then to get the house looking decent. (FEAR)

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Operation: Birthday was a partial success. The people who threatened me with songs and the like were mostly avoided. Found out later that Billy had convinced them that the best way to grant my 'birthday wish' would be to not do the birthday things. Was rather grateful.

Later however, my birthday was again announced- this time at the overnight meeting (which we missed due to the arrival of a frozen truck). Later, when I was taking out other pallets on the grocery side, someone noticed me and said happy birthday. This alerted everyone else there that I was in the vicinity, upon which they all came out one by one to say it as well. XD

Later:

Pi: (embarassed) Thank you.
Aaron: Waitasec. How come you don't get mad at them when they say it, but you bite our heads off?
Pi: Because you know better.
Billy: Oh what the hell.

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Same day Billy said something interesting to me.

Billy: You know it's not a big deal if someone wants to do something for your birthday. It's actually kind of a nice thing. It makes you feel appreciated by your friends.

I've spent the last several years under the impression that I have no friends (in real life). Well, one friend... but she's still away in the Dominican Republic. It's gotten to the point where I really can't remember just how people become friends. Is it really that simple? I still find it all confusing.

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Jen is back from vacation. She is a million shades of awesome. Twice in a row now, I have been chosen to sort break packs andscan electronics over Kathy. Pure win.

Best thing is that Kathy's throwing a fit over it. That's supposedly 'her thing', and she was never happy when I was even asked to help her at times after she learned I do it too. She's been really nasty lately, but I could care less. MUAH. I win.

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Twice now, happy news completely unrelated to me has made me have brief moments of emo. I don't think this says anything nice about my character.

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I've started playing Bishop over at TT officially.  It's oresome. XD

Non-working related items first: I managed to wake myself up early enough today to attend a going away party for my friend's sister (actually, she's my friend too... so just friend XD). My grandmother, who'd gone on and on about me doing so didn't even pick me up, sending my grandpa instead. Which is fine with me- grandpa is a cool guy.

When we got on a less busy road, he actually had me drive for a bit. I did well on the straight road, and not too bad in a subdivision we drove through. I even got to drive on the curvy dirt road that leads to the house the party was at. Much fun :). After that, I went inside and my grandpa headed back home, saying that grandma would come pick me up in time for work.

I only had about an hour before I had to leave. But I got to visit, and it was nice seeing everyone. The friend I usually hang around with was off doing other things for a while before I actually got to see her though XD. 'Twas nice when she showed up though, because a lot of people came with her.

Ahem. Now this is where I must show a little bit of the teenaged girl self that in all technicallity I still am. >.>

I think I've only mentioned him a few times before, but one of the biggest non-childhood crushes I've ever had has been for a boy in this town I moved to. Shortly before I came, he'd moved to Wyoming, but he returned around the time I did and is going to be here for awhile.

I crush from quite a distance, and act normal around him, for how short those times are. And I don't spend like every second oogling over him or anything. Ick... that'd be weird. XD

Anyways- to get to the point. He was taking a picture with two other people there, and the one with the camera had them posing by the couch I was sitting on. Now, he happens to be a fairly tall person, and the two he was with are at least half a foot shorter. So he had one arm over each of their shoulders, and was bent forward to center the picture, as tall people are required to do in group shots.

Did I mention that they had their backs to the couch? Yes, I know it'd be odd for someone to pose in front of the couch and whatnot- just making sure here. So back to the couch... that I'm sitting on. Mind, I am right next to them, as I'm on the end closest here. So when he leaned forward... well... I had a really lovely view. :3

All right. I'm done teenaging now. >.> 

Ahem. Work! 

So it turned out to be four of us instead of five today. Yeesh... so glad it was a really tiny truck. Even if it was a truck of doom. We opened the door and a pallet tried to assasinate us O_o. I'm not even joking. Often enough, the people who load the truck do so in the worst way possible, causing all kids of boxes to fall on us when it's time to unload. Last week, a television nearly squashed me. But even that is much preferred to a pallet.

As troublesome as it was to remove everything in our way before we could unload, it still killed time faster than starting right away. As so much was palletized in the front, we got farther in the truck a lot faster.

I also got to do something new today. As Kathy was off, Michael on guard duty, and Sue got her days changed, it left us with no official scanner person. So Cherri decided to train me to use the gun, explained how to account for all of the items, and set me to work!

Oh man. I loved it so much in comparison to what I usually do. The scanner also happens to looks a lot like a phaser off of Star Trek. So when I wasn't scanning or separating break-packs, I was kinda messing around with it like it was one. XD

Of course, if the truck was bigger, I probably would've hated being the scanner. Besides electronics, we also have to sort the break-pack crap. Depending on how many there are, it can take a while. I have no idea if I worked at a good speed or not, as far as those go. Hopefully, I did.

On a side note, as I was getting ready to pull something out, Paul and I had a nice discussion.

Paul: Do you mind if I say something?
Pi: (bwazzuh?) No, I don't mind.
Paul: Since you've started working here, I think you've lost some weight.
Pi: ...Really? :D Sweeeet.
Paul: Looks like it. Could be you've gotten more muscle, but you look thinner.

Either way, this is most pleasing to me. Now, if I could stop eating junk food, this excercise would really pay off!

(sighs) Guess I better sleep now. Must be awake early for the meeting, and whatnot. Have a quiz thingy before I go. Picked this up from sparrowskit.

I only got to see my friends for a little over an hour, but I did get to see them. It was nice- I wish that they could've stayed longer. But it's a bit of a drive and it was getting dark, so it was easy to understand why they had to leave so soon. Maybe next time we'll get to visit longer.

Man, I must've been really tired today. Shortly after they left, I fell asleep at my laptop and napped for about three hours. I feel more relaxed now, though. I think I really needed that. I'm dreading going back to work tomorrow (Why don't days off last longer? ;_;), but luckily it's only for the half of the day. I'm debating with myself what to do with the small amount of time I'll have.

Had it not been for what I did a few hours ago, I probably wouldn't be thinking about it at all. However, at around one I left the house and walked to a nearby gas station to get some milk. I almost didn't go, with the line of thought that no one would want me to leave the house so late at night for something that can wait until morning, especially if I were walking.

But then what I've been telling people all along went through my head: It's my life now.

If I want to get milk at one in the morning, then I can do it now. If I don't feel like cleaning my closet, I don't have to. If I want to stay up late watching cartoons, I can do it. If I want to go to the other side of the country without anyone accompanying me at some point, then I'm free to.

For some reason, despite knowing this, I never realized this statement truly until tonight. With the exception of legal limitations, I can do whatever I want to do now. I have to bear the results of my actions of course, but now I'm actually able to carry them out, something I wasn't even given the chance to try.

Now, this isn't to say I'm about to go bungee jumping, or find a random stranger to date all of a sudden. But it's really thrilling for me to think that if I want to leave my house and walk around town at whatever time I want, the only person who can stop me is me. I don't know what exactly I can do around here, but the point is I can do it.

I'll have to explore this freedom. ^_^

I really need to start remembering the fact that the day doesn't end when I go to bed. As a matter of fact, in normal people time, the day is often a quarter done by the time I hit the hay. Getting this idea in my head is taking a while though, as proved once again when I only remembered that I needed to put my trash out before the garbage is collected as I was going to bed.

So quickly, I threw on some shoes and took my flashlight. Everytime I journey to the garbage cans behing my house, I can't help but remember a list poem I wrote for my English class my freshman year. The ten rules for horror movies. The third rule on the list was to never go down a dark alley (really, this is just a rule for life), yet my absent mindedness forces me to have to do this every week. Though tonight, there was the pleasant addition of rain. I actually love the rain, so it would have been very nice if it weren't so freaking cold out. (huddles under blankets)

But the trash is out an I'm not dead. Next week, maybe I'll get this done while it's still light out. ^_^;

Anyways, tomorrow I am attempting an actual Social Experience. I'm going to go out in service (haven't done that in months) with my friend in the afternoon, and then maybe hang out with her for a little bit. Depends on how busy she is.

...And if she remembers. >.< She's a busy person, and slighty scatter-brained. Our plans rarely follow through without one hitch or another. XD